#2

this blog entry is about poop, and i might share too much information by your standards.  if you think this is gross or inappropriate that's fine - stop reading - my feelings shant be hurt.

poop.  we all do it on a daily basis, and for some reason there's some stigma attached to it.  using the bathroom is a very personal activity, that is understandable - but why is peeing more acceptable than pooping?  why is one's poop some secret that everyone kinda keeps to themselves and almost acts embarassed if they are caught in the act of poo'ing or if someone else knows they are poo'ing at that instant?

pooping at work sucks - no getting around that.  and it's awkward.  this is one of the reasons i love working from home - i live alone, have full access to my own bathroom and privacy, and so anytime i need to 'go' i can without reservation.  however, pooping at work can pose a problem.  i'm one of those people that likes privacy while partaking in this particular bathroom activity, which i'm sure is the norm here.  but why can we pee while even letting out an audible sigh of relief with others around with no reservation, but quitly pooping with others in the restroom is so difficult?  and i'm guilty of that. 

i cannot go when someone else is in the bathroom - if i have just sat down and someone else walks in, i will abort the mission.  and have you ever walked into the bathoom to 'go' when someone else is there - you know they're in that stall, and you have obviously interrupted  them?  then both of y'all are just sitting there in awkward poop silence waiting for the other to zip up and leave the other in peace - and it sucks to be the one that has to surrender.  it's almost like a game of chicken.  do you ever just want to call out, 'girl, just go - it's okay - just go.'  i've been tempted (can you imagine the reaction?), but instead i will surrender and walk out anxiously awaiting the next opportunity.  we've all been there, you know what i mean - we are all  in this together.

and another thing that sucks...

when you start dating someone and having 'sleepovers', it is often hard to break away for the privacy to poop without the other knowing.  this especially poses a problem when either party lives in a small one bedroom, one bathroom residence - such as myself.  you can sometimes do the trick where you go and to take a shower and poop while you are in the safety of the sound of running water and a locked door, but that doesn't always work.  now, i want to make it perfectly clear i do not have frequent 'overnights' - the opposite is true in fact.  but, y'all  know what i'm talking about - when you  start seeing someone and on the verge of entering a potential relationship, this does come up.

i have a 'special' friend who i've had overnights with in the past and recently had an extended weekend with.  and the thing that's weird is that we are close friends and have been for years, but once you've slept someone and crossed that line (as we did), something changes.  before i didn't care if he knew i had just pooped in the bathroom but now for some reason it quite bothers me - i avoid it!  and what's odd about that is that he is so casual about poop.  like, he's told me he has to poop before - then goes in the bathroom and i know that's what he's doing.  it doesn't bother me at all - in fact, it's quite refreshing.  so why do i think it's a big deal?  i recently went to visit him for a few days, and i just couldn't bring myself to go in his house.  like, i didn't want to risk getting 'caught' or something.  so then i found myself awaiting any opportunity i had when we went out to 'go'.  it was kinda ridiculous, and because i felt i had to hold it i was uncomfortable for a good part of the trip.

i have a yoga teacher who said during a workshop that one of the cool things about teaching yoga is that you can talk to other yogis freely about poop and sex - yoga enhances both greatly.  this is no secret to those that practice regularly.  i love yogis for this reason - we love to poop, we don't hesitate talking about it, and that's awesome.

that's all i have for now - poop.